screwed

back off la bitch!

2005-03-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

she saying as if everyone owes her a living. oh please! you have no single right to scold LE. she has done nth wrong. she recommended you the job, in the end u scolded her. wtf?!? pays no kindness. the pay is little?? as if it's her fault tat the pay is little. ungrateful bitch! judge ppl as if u are some celebrity or star? my foot!! haven't u heard tat dun judge others?? never knew u oso judge fwens by their looks. as if u got the looks! *puke* i will never go out wif u. LISTEN UP, NEVERRRR! ur oh-so-pretending smile is making me PUKE! back off la. cant stand the sight of such ppl. i dun mind losing a fwen like u. in fact, i'm glad u're not in my way. go ahead bad-mouthing everyone. wif u & ur acquantince ee pei, i'm sure u both make it big. big as in big bad-mouthing, detesting, pretending bitches!! rite, shall not waste anymore of my precious time blogging abt u. not worth it. bye!

2005-02-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

phew! work all day long. finally my awaiting days are gonna end tis friday. arghhh. results out tis friday!!! time really passes huh? i kinda like predict wat i might get. but den again, shln't be so pessimistic rite? just hoping for the best. sighs. freaking scared. cos everyone say i can make it. so i must really haf faith in myself. i dared not face the results. sheesh. can somebody just look at my results for me??? hrms.

2005-02-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

everything seems to come to an end. birthdays, new yr. e worst is coming soon. he is not here for 5 days. mixed feelings. happy becos i haf a little freedom. sad becos i'm bored. miss him though. but nonetheless, he's coming back today.

haha. B is so gonna regret huh? his girl kinda ditched him. guess i'm laughing at his situation. haha. tis kinda guy, i can find at the streets. there are like millions of them like him. the society wun be losing without him. e guy who broke my heart so shatteredly. hate euu. bleahx. dun even exist in my world. watever it is, he's ain't e person i knew. he's just a tinty-tweeny fly frenn of mine. who has no influence in my life. i wouldn't mind losing a fren like him. hah.

2005-01-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

met wayne just now for job search. was kinda tiring actually. but he's really good at this. ha. he's so cute. esp his smile. so radiant & erms, smiley? :) haha. he's a real nice guy lars. ohh. pls. dun get me wrong. i'm not interested in him. just frens k? i bet he only treats me as his sis. yups. i'm so fortunate to meet such nice ppl on irc. i always thot nice ppl do not exist in irc. oh wells.

tiff wif him AGAIN! i hate it mans. i find him kinda irritating lo. always wanting to know my whereabouts. i need freedom too kies? gosh. cant he be more understanding etc etc? i know not every guy is perfect. the perfect guy u can find is in ur dreams. right? yups. i dunno whether to continue tis relationship or not. i'm like truly tired, fatigue, exhausted from all these. now i wish i was single again. yups. it's so contradicting. ahh, watever la.

2005-01-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

rightt. i din get to see wayne juz now. cos li en last min called me up say got interview. i felt so remorseful to pai seh him last min. den we agreed tmr. gosh. i need to wake up real early tmr. guess wat? won bin is coming to IMM tmr!! gosh. my idol! bet i cant take a pic of him. too bad i dun haf digi cam. arghh. i hope i will see him. it's like once in a lifetime!! heh. i totally crazy abt him.

stupid arse. wrote my name & no. on bus 14. DAMMIT. I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW WHO ARE U. I'LL SKIN U ALIVE. fook u can. such a lame, idiotic, stupid arsehole ever exist.

2005-01-10T10:49:00.000+08:00

sharks! i'm meeting wayne later! omg. kinda nervous actually. cos he's my newly net fwen. hmm. makes me tink when i was meeting aung last time. we were like so quiet?! onli shi qi start talking. mm. maybe tat explains why she's so sociable. haha. mm. i'll probably be supa quiet. i dunch noe how to; u know start a conversation wif someone? guess i'm not tat affable. :\ anyways, we are gonna find job. meeting at town later at 12.30. gosh. so exciting! haha. i wonder wat kinda person he is like when meeting him. hmmm... alrightts. stop here. will update more when i'm back. wish me luck den! heh.

it's a small world?

2005-01-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

yups. a small world indeed!
chat wif this someone on irc. guess wat? he's a catholic, previously in legion, supports ayumi & speed, likes putting full stop in his sentence (like me!) so much in common. but he's too into politics. which i totally hate!! asking me if i prefer bush or kerry. like wth?!? do i even care? lols. i believe he's a devoted catholic. seems to me. hah. alrightt. shall update more later.

2005-01-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

u know wat? he's wif joyce & his frens on xmas eve. wth?? i din know. joyce and laycheng gave him printed toilet paper. took pics wif her. fine. din let me. thot i wun know. he can be wif her, i cant be wif my frens? WAD THE FOOK IS THIS??? where's the logic?? fook! ha. which means i can be wif my guy frens. i dun give a damn already. jealousy? of course. y didn't he tell me. i guess he know i'll be super jealous. but at least let me know? wtf is this man? fren & bf turn against u.

FOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT! GET LOST EVERYONE!!!!

2005-01-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

had a fcuktrated day ysd. intially was looking forward though. but it turned out like shit! cann somebody tell me wat frens are? sometimes i wish i had a more funky group of frens. but i ccan't expect more. i wish i had a gal fren whom i'm able to confide in. so disppointed tat my frens had turned out to be like this. bleahs. i hate it. sometimes i wish a had someone to shop with me, haf the same interest as me, taking photos. ha, wat frens i haf. a bunch of oh-so-pretending pple. get a life peeps! dun be such drama mamas. boy, i dunno wat the heck i'm toking. oh wells, i cant be bothered. I WANT NEW FRENS!!

2004-12-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

finally. all my hectic days are over.
rejoice!
haha
anyways, pageant was okie ysd. i din screw up anything.

glad tat ku is a little understanding now. but i still cant stand him saying vulgarities.

hmm. going out wif peeps later. hope i'll haf fun.
beaching tmr!!! yeah!
haha
going wif gym peeps to sentosa tmr. cool. haven't been to sentosa for sucha long time!!
hurray!

:)

2004-12-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

hrmss. i'll update some other time.

2004-12-21T10:31:00.000+08:00

had some tiff wif him ysd. as usual. it seems tat we are having tiff almost every day! went out wif LE & mel to ps. shop arnd for a while den had kfc. after tat mel went to fetch her sis home. LE & me went to x-zone at the mrt. the game we played was so fun. stayed there to abt 7 smth. rush to clementi to meet HL. i can't believe it! HL & jason?? together? gosh. surprising. i thot mel & LE were lying to me. but it's true after i've asked her again. later going to his hse. actually din intend to. but i've already promised him. he'll be super tu lan or pissed or watever if i dun go.

I WANT CANON A400 DIGI CAM!!! parents always promised me to buy but in the end. didn't. such a disappointment! i want to get it before xmas. cos i want to take snappies wif velocity 32 on xmas! sighs.

tonite still got pageant. i hate it. but nvm. it's a gift for jesus. i hope my bro is not joseph. i can't act if he's joseph! i dunno wat's going on wif the D brothers. i reckon june will be super angry wif them. anyway, i dun like them too! blehs. :P

2004-12-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

went out with him today. supposely going out wif LE but i promised to go out wif him. i dun really looking forward in going out wif him cos i always dread tat i might see my relatives or even ppl which i dun wanna let them see. even worst, MY FAMILY!! well, kinda window shopping wif him. saw jez & her bf too. she can't recognise me! gosh. have i changed tat much? i tink the person who change tat much is she herself! anyways, made a short & shweet convesation wif her. he bought for me a cap!! gosh. he's so shweet. i love u! though we might tiff over trivial matters but i'll still love him.

ysd's zi yuan xue xi ying was good. i love the praise & worship part. in every camps i'm always looking forward to it. cos i love the songs to bits! owells. reminds me of jing xiu ying which i din go tis yr. partly becos of financial prob & lazy to go such stuff. i know, i can do lots of catching up wif my old buds, but i really can't be bothered already. someone still stares or should i say peered in my direction. i can sense it. i know he still likes me though he gave me blessings to my & him. i guess i can only be frens wif him. no real feelings for him. but in any of the activties in legion, i always seems to find him. searching for him. dunch know why. he's a great guy i know. prob better than him? but frens will always be frens for life.

hmm. when i'm abt to leave legion, i know i'll miss all the frens i had in legion. all the fun, experiences, etc etc. but no use oso staying on if i dun haf the feelings in there. right? yupp. hopefully can leave next yr. owells. now i'm having dilemma in jobs. i hope i can get an answer real soon tmr.

2004-12-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

i dunno where or whom to tell my thots & feelings sometimes. i can't put it up in my public blog. recently very vexed abt e relationship i'm having. i rather be single now den suffer. but den again i gain some stuff. i such a sinner. i'm so dirty. i can't seem to wash it away. i've been turning away from God. sheesh. i must reflect & repent. since it's close to xmas. i wish i haf a listener with me. but i dun now. so i'll just pen down wat i feel. hoping others will not chance upon tis blog.

i get REAL irritated when he ask me abt church stuff. i mean he doesn't even understand wat's going on since he is like NOT a christian! i tink he's too much. he gets jealous too easily. can't he just not bother abt my church stuff & just be a good dear? i get real pissed just now. not only tis incident. there's many other things tat i just can't understand y he it bothers him. den it was job tat we had a tiff ysd. imelda called me to help her find e OG job. so i asked my godma abt it. i din say tat i haven't finish my job yet cos she'll be like "u haven't finish den call me for wat" smth liddat. so i tink she gladly assume tat me & mel needs the job. den he again was angry. it's not becos i dun like his job or wat. the problem is tat his dad's job is not stable & it's kinda far for me. i'm not an early bird kinda person. aiya. i dunno wat his problem is la. i was like soooo angry. CAN'T HE CHANGE HIS FARKING ATTITUDE!!!!!! i hate it mans. most of e time i try to give way. cos i know very well his character. but sometimes i really can't take it and feel like breaking off this relationship. i oso dun like e way he touches me. partly it's becos i'm in fault to at the 1st place. shouldn't give in too easily. i did tell him but sometimes he just wouldn't listen. sighs. i'm so pissed now. can't he change for the better for me to save this relationship? i felt tat i'm not at wrong at all. PLEASE! COULD SOMEONE JUST HELP ME???